have i started it all?

From: Novilla, Joy Kristine A
Sent: Tuesday, April 22, 2014 12:17 PM
To: —-
Subject: RE: SID

Hi gurl.
Hay.. super sad aq. Hmm… prang hnde. Hehe..
There was this guy. MU kmi since grade 5 aq. Pero hndi naging kami.
The 1st & last time n nkausap q xa n kmi lng 2, college p tyo. D dw nya q maligawan kc sbi nun pinsan nya,kami. So prang out of respect s kuya nya.. d nya q maligawan. Tpos nun time n n-clarify n n mali un,meron aq bf. & he’s sick then. As in mejo seryoso kya pinaiwas aq s knya ni kuya.
We never had a chance 2 text each other mn lng. I dnt know why. Prang enough n sakin n MU kmi that time.
Tpos nun june 2010, fiesta samin, andun xa. Sbi nya bkt dw hndi q xa hnintay. Kc my anak n q nun. Sbi nya if willing daw nman aq.. alam q alam nya n hndi nman kmi nagkatuluiyan ng tatay ng anak q. so that day, kharap tito q,cnbi nya n kung papayag dw aq,willing nman xa n maging tatay ng anak q. weird dba. lasing? Tpos bgla nman dating ni jolo. Pinakilala q p cla s isat isa. Ayun..
Tpos nagmmessage lng kmi s fb.. kht pg nsa barko xa.
Last time q xa nkausap, august 2013. Ask nya sakin if kasal b dw tlga kmi ni jolo. Msta dw buhay my asawa.
Tpos d q nman sinagot. Sbi q lng mhirap kc kelangn mgadjust s ugali nya & all.. kwento kwento.
Tpos ayun.. d q maalala. Bsta this year lng. Nun nagtxt sakin c mommy cnbi ikkasal n dw c guy.
Tpos ayun.. kinasal n sya. Lahat ng mkita q s labas ng bahay tinatanong aq ‘akala q kayo?’ ‘bakit hndi ikaw?’
Prang adik dba. Pno q b ssbhin n hndi naman naging kami.
Grrr! Tpos sbi nun tga samin knina umaga ‘baka gs2 mo sumama.. ppunta aq dun ngaun.bka pwede p hndi matuloy’
Ayun.. wala n.. prang engot no. d q alam bkt gnun ung feeling.
Pero nun nkkta q xa & we’re not in a relationship.. d q nman xa naiicp.

From: —–
Sent: Wednesday, April 23, 2014 2:44 AM
To: Novilla, Joy Kristine A
Subject: RE: SID

May panghihinayang lang siguro girl.. siguro iniisip mo kung what if nga binigyan mo siya ng chnce.. anu kaya ngyri.. tas nkakalungkot kc parang wala n talaga kc kasal na siya gnon.
Alam mo parang tanga lang.. kc nung nabasa ko n may sakit tas sinabi mo n sad ka.. ang naisip ko dun sa k MU mo namatay.

Mabait b ito? Bet mo din ung guy ano? Kaya kyo nagging mag MU? 
Kayo b ni jolo kelan mag papakasal?

From: Novilla, Joy Kristine A
Sent: Tuesday, April 22, 2014 3:19 PM
To: —–
Subject: RE: SID

Kasal? Hay.. prang d q tlga nkkta srili q n ikinakasal s knya. Dati oo. Pero hbang tumatagal prang convenience n lng tlga kya kami prin.
Kayo b? gano n nga kayo katagal?

Un guy kc.. nun una q xa nagging crush feeling q ang gwapo gwapo nya. Naniwala aq n kmukha xa ni d****** ******.
Tpos nun bumalik un meteor garden meron nagssbi s wall nya n xa dw c dao ming xe, hehe..
Super mabait. Un nga yta ung inayaw q s knya b4. Kc sobrang mabait,
Un kuya nya kc un nauna q nagustuhan kya lng since 13yrs un tnda nya sakin,d tlga pde.
Noon gs2 ng tatay nya n ipgkasundo kmi ng kuya nya,pero nun cnbi ni daddy n bata p nga dw aq,sbi nun tatay nla,eh d dun n lng dw s mejo malapit un age sakin. Xa nga ung ikinasal. Hay..
Un un eh dba.. minsan kc s sobrang ayw ntin n msabihan n playgirl or papalit palit ng bf, kht gs2 mo un tao iniiwasan ntin.
Minsan naicp q sna ktulad aq ng ibang tao n wlang pkielam. At least nagagawa q ung mga gs2 q n wla aq pkielam s ssbhin ng ibang tao.
Hehe.. emo no 

From: —–
Sent: Wednesday, April 23, 2014 4:14 AM
To: Novilla, Joy Kristine A
Subject: RE: SID

Seryoso yan? Bkit namn n fi feel mo yan? Gno n kyo katagal ni jolo?
Kme wala p sa plan. Kka 4 yrs lang nmin nung 18.

Gnon ba.. so eto pla ay may pag ka chinito?  hehehe..bkit ayaw mo ng super bait at bka nasa loob ang kulo? O gsto mo e ung mejo badboy ang dating?

From: Novilla, Joy Kristine A
Sent: Tuesday, April 22, 2014 4:37 PM
To: —–
Subject: RE: SID

Ewn q. dati meron dn aq nagging bf,prang 1 month lng. Mxado ideal kc. Mxado mabait.
Cguro nga ms gs2 q ungmejo my pgk-badboy. Yn nkkuha q kababasa eh. Hehe..
Ayoko kc n aq un mgiging dhilan ng pgaaway nmin. So kng sobrang bait,aq nnman un kontrabida. Hehe..

Wla kmi anniv tlga dba. Bsta nun ondoy,aq un pinuntahan nya hndi ung gf nya that time. kya alam q n dun un nag-start.
So 2009 un. Mg-5yrs n pla. Hehe.. prang lately kc or mula nun mgkaiba n kmi sched,prang wla lng..
Prang friends lng kmi. Nt jst bcoz of the intimate moments n nawala. Bsta.. prang nag-iba

From: —–
Sent: Tuesday, April 29, 2014 9:20 PM
To: Novilla, Joy Kristine A
Subject: RE: SID

Hehehehe ako dn bet ko ang mga badboy type n itchura heheheh ung parang astig astig..

As in? bka nmn kc hndi lang kyo nkakapag bonding masydo gawa ng sched or pagod kayo gnun..

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i knew it then n something’s wrong. but i chose to ignore it. sobrang n-guilty aq that’s why i told my self kelangn q bumawi..

sinisisi q srili q s isang bagay n dti nman n plang ngyyri.. hndi nga lng aq un nauna mgbago..

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