Do you really accept my son?
Coz you said you love him as your own.
You said you want to be the father he never had.
But your actions said otherwise.
2011. someone was using the bathroom at home (batangas). Gabu needs to pee. After he found out that the door was locked, he immediately went to the front door in the living room, peed, then I heard you shouting “gabu!” when I came to where you’re at, you told me “anu bay an beh.. hindi ba tinuturuan si gabu.. parang aso!” perhaps you only mean well.. I know it isn’t right for him to get used to it. Wala lang choice yung bata. Isa lang cr sa bahay namin, nagkataon lang na meron gumagamit. And besides.. aso? You know gabu has developmental issues right?
2012. gabu needs to be evaluated by a developmental pedia. I told you I have to bring him here in manila either I look for a nanny, or I have to tag my mom along. Since we live together, kala ko automatic ibig sabihin satin sila titira for the mean time. You told me “beh kung ditto titira si gabu.. sino magaalaga sa kanya? Mahirap mghanap ng yaya. Kung tyong dalawa lang, mahirap kasi yung schedule natin panggabi tyo pareho. Kung iiwan natin yung yaya sa bahay pag gabi, beh andami natin gamit.. alam mo naman na makalat ako. And mahihirapan tyo kasi halos wala tayo tulog nun..” so on and so forth. Wait. Ako lang ba nag-isip na ayaw mo na kasama natin sa bahay si gabu?
Scenario 3 .
May 2014. It was already passed 1 in the afternoon and we’re about to have our lunch at home (batangas). My mom cooked sinigang. We had our breakfast before 9. Gabu is used to eat every 2 hours. While I was still preparing the plates and all, you saw gabu taking a string of kangkong from the bowl. I heard you raise your voice “gabu wag..! … gabu! Hindi ka masabihan ha! Para kang patay gutom!”
I remember this one time when I heard my mom and dad arguing, almost whispering to each other, trying to hold down their voices because you might hear them. My dad saw you nun pinalo mo si gabu. I don’t know what happened why you did that. Kaya lang samin kasi as much as possible hindipagbubuhatan ng kamay yun bata kasi nga he’s special, he’s different from normal kids of his age and that they should be disciplined in a different way. I thought you, of all people, understand. You should understand. You should’ve understood his situation.
And yes, I appreciate the fact that you include gabu in our plans. When we’re looking for a condo unit, you keep on saying “etong room na to para kay mama.. eto para kay gabu, and sa magiging anak natin. Tapos eto para sating dalawa..”. when you were checking out new cars, you keep on saying “maliit na yung vios para satin. Si mama, ako, ikaw, si gabu, si tita beth.. we need a bigger one.” Pero after we broke up, you told me “I want to be there for gabu.. kasi kay gabu wala ako obligasyon.. dumating man ako o hinde, ok lang..”