“kahit naman daw hindi mo ikwento sa kanila kung anu nagyari.. alam na nila.. dahil sa mga posts mo sa fb”
hindi naman lahat ng posts ko eh about sa kanya.. when we were still together, whenever there are posts or pictures that I like, I share those too. Not because gusto ko patamaan yung boyfriend ko that time, or kahit na sino. But because I remember someone on that photo or quote (or saying), and also because it caught my attention even if there’s no particular reason at all.
I know people will get tired of hearing my story. Not everyone’s like me. for me kasi, kahit paulit ulit ko marinig yung kwento nun isang tao, if it’s the only way I can help that person, makikinig at makikinig ako. Kasi I wouldn’t know how painful it is for him or her. Other people might say ‘gasgas’ na yung kwento and they might get tired of giving advice kaya they would avoid that person whenever they feel na magku-kwento nanaman sya.. but for me, chance ko yun para makatulong.. and it simply means that person trusts me with her feelings na hindi ko sya ija-judge just by hearing her out.
I just cant understand why people will say something nasty about what I’ve been going through kung hindi naman nila naiintindihan. Never would they understand how I feel, what I’m going through, kasi they weren’t there. Only keith and my housemates and my clsoest friends in the office are the people who has the right na magcomment. Kasi sila yung nakakita ng lahat. Sila yung nakakita how sad I am, how miserable I am, how devastated I am.. sila lang.
I appreciate the effort of my friend keith. super thankful ako sa kanila. Lagi nya ko kinakausap via text or fb messenger since nalaman nila that he broke up with me. she offered na tutulungan nya ko makahanap ng malilipatan after I found out na meron ibang babae yung boyfriend ko. Even if she has her own problems, hindi nya ko pinabayaan. Nun kelangan ko na umalis ng apartment and wala ako mapupuntahan, she offered their place for me to stay. She was there all throughout the process. I would never forget everything she has done for me, together with her boyfriend and yung mga kasama naming sa unit. That’s why when my ex boyfriend told me “bakit nga ba kita ihahatid pa eh mas importante naman sayo ang mga kaibigan mo kesa sakin..” hindi ako nag-dalawang isip na sabihin sa kanya “kasi hindi nya ko iniwan.. ikaw yung inasahan ko na andun, pero hinde.. siya yung andun.. sya yung hindi nang-iwan..”