Gotta love myy self more to deserve more 😇
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Meeting New friends
the “50 shades darker” date with my OET friends
i’m not in dire need of a boyfriend, or a partner in life. all i want is for my son to be normal, and my family to be happy. bitter as it may seem, but i’m ok living a happy and uncomplicated, single life 🙂 if it’s in accordance to God’s plan that i’ll be single for life, of course i can’t do do anything but to embrace this #calling haha! i know God has better plans for me & my son.. and for as long as we’re together, i’m the happiest.
“like a phoenix, i wanted to be reborn. forged in the fire. Strong.”
excerpt from ‘very twisted things’ . lisa madden-mills.
eureka moment
that feeling when you’ve confirmed that your ex boyfriend is now your “ex” friend’s boyfriend, not more than 2 months after he broke up with you. 
“unti-unti.. kelangan natin masanay na hindi na tayo nagkikita.. na hindi na natin hahanapin ang isat’-isa..”
2015 yearender.
guilt has never left me. when i learnt that you two broke up because of me. every day, i keep on telling you “go back to her and fix things with her”. you said you already have made your choice and therevs nothing left to fix. after a few weeks.. just a few days ago. december 25. what a lovely gift from a ‘concerned officemate’. a picture of you two together. i asked you to leave me alone. you cried and asked me not to leave you. coz you were just ‘pretending’ to be ok for your relatives. i’ve had enough.
the next day, i got a message from her. asking me for the truth.
and yes she was right. how can you cheat on me with her, when in the first place.. i was the side chick.
you could’ve just been true. to you. to me. to her.
“let me fix things first.. do some soul and self-searching. and if no one will ever accept me again, if i have nothing left in me.. please don’t close your doors on me. i want you to be there.. ”
that’s bullshit! i’m not that stupid.
thank you. for everything.
and i wish i’ll never get to see you again.
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A year ago, i only have keith & pem, ate jo, joe & lye & lou & ken as my closest friends..
Every day is a blessing, a moment to cherish and celebrate life.
I thank Him for taking one person away from me, and replacing it with a few better pack.
#pabebemodesaumaga
When someone gave you flowers.. On a black-letter day.. How do we usually react? Being maarte & all that, if i saw a guy giving flowers/bouquet to a lady, my friends and i would say “uy oh.. Love!” or “sus.. Sa simula lang yan..” or “nku basted yan!”
When P and i were still together, i always tell him “alam mo.. I’d rather you give me valuavle things instead of flowers. I’d rather receive cookbooks, can opener.. Pink broom.. Instead of flowers.” so our last date? He gave me pink hangers instead. And i really did appreciate it (then).
Now.. When you’re in the cafeteria getting free coffee 10minutes before your shift and someone approached you and handed you flowers.. Well.. I was dumbfounded. Stupidity at its finest! Instead of saying thank you, just seeing almost everyone looking at you, i just blurted out “what the fuck?! I’m not sick! Why do you have to wait up just to give me flowers?!”
All there is to say is.. I’m sorry. I’m just really maarte. And you don’t have a choice but to get over it!
2years ago.. Ok, just do the math.
Meeting new friends.
Meet my new movie and gym buddies 🙂
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“And that’s what love was all about. People who saw through the flaws and loved you anyway, who helped you when you needed it most, who would always be there for you, and who always had your back.”
Excerpt From: Burton, Jaci. “Thrown by a Curve.” Berkley Trade, 2013-03-04T23:00:00+00:00. iBooks.
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a tick on my bucketlist. but 10k?! hmm…
art.
mommy duty
i wish i could live forever.. so you’ll never feel alone. i wouldn’t want you to grow with hatred in your heart.. thay will make you leave other people (women, in that case) then you’ll say “kasi si mommy eh.. wala sya inatupag kundi magtrabaho. iniwan nya ko mag-isa.. ako lang lagi mag-isa.. kya ganito ako ngayon..”
i know even if i’m gone.. our family would never ever leave you alone.
even if you’re special, in ways more than one.. i never regret having you in my life.
sabi ng mga bitter walang forever. but i have one.
others may leave me bone dry, i may have given up on them, but for you.. i never would.
photo courtesy of https://www.facebook.com/Aiman3D
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After 2 months of soul searching.. Hehehe.. After being rejected from 3 companies and declining 3 offers.. I think it’s about time. I never thought i’ll be working in mckinley; i prayed to God that.. Since i still can’t face him, please lead me somewhere i can have a new start. And since i’ll be working near his office building.. I’m still thankful. I just hope everything turns out well..
prejudice.
prejudice
/ˈprɛdʒʊdɪs/
noun
1.
an opinion formed beforehand, esp an unfavorable one based on inadequate facts
now that 50 Shades of Grey movie is being shown in cinemas not just in the Philippines, but also in other parts of the world, my facebook feed has been flooded again. liberated, pakawala, malandi, and all those adjectives would once again come into the minds of those close-minded people. in our modern world, being sexually active and if someone is open about their sexuality and other things pertaining to sex is no longer a no-no.
when i started reading the said book by E.L James, my boyfriend then keep on saying I’m a pervert. He said I’m a sex addict.. and that I’m no longer the person he used to know.
really?! Just because of a book?!
well.. mukhang kinain mo mga sinabi mo ah.. eventually, as i’ve mentioned in my previous posts.. I’ve learnt that he is a cheater. a womanizer. he said he had too many girls at his beck and call, since we’ve started dating. and the fact that I’ve seen bras and panties inside MY drawer… and those aren’t mine coz i don’t use undergarments with loose straps and garters (bacon), who’s laughing now?!
sinong malandi?! sinong pervert?! sinong sex addict?!
go ask yourself.
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the closest i have to a best friend. kuya na hindi kasi he’s 12 days older than me.. ang nagiisang taong nakakapagpamura sakin ng bonggang bongga! happy birthday fritz jess tracy medalla 😁
(photos courtesy of madam joe estrella)
wanna be
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hurt heals. choosing sucks.
pain sucks. hurting someone you care about sucks.
but that’s life.
life hurts.
sometimes we’re faced with a shitty fucking choice that leaves everyone involved hurt somehow.
all we can do is make the right choice for you, and move on.
The year-ender
I was making my self busy, singing.. While waiting for the year to end. Then my phone alerted me of an email that came.
Alas! I was doing ok. Then..
“it’s as if he was telling duane to back-off from you in this pic.. ”
If my memory serves me right.. This was taken september 21, 2013. A few days before our 4th ondoy anniversary. I think he was drunk then. We keep on asking him not to drive anymore. Duane bought me this mogu mogu drink while they were having red horse. and jolo said i was flirting with duane. They all thought i had a crush on him. I liked him, yes. Because of his voice. But i never had any thoughts of doing something about it.
“we stood there, looking at each other, saying nothing. but it was the kind of nothing that meant everything. in his eyes, there was no trace of what had happened between us earlier and i could feel something inside me break.
so that was that. we were finally over.
i looked at him, and i felt so sad, because this thought occured to me: ‘i will never look at you the same way again. i’ll never be that girl again. the girl who comes running back every time you push her away, the girl who loves you anyway.’
i couldn’t even be mad at him, because this was who he was. this was who he’d always been. he’d never lied about that. he gave and then he took away. i felt it in the pit of my stomach, the familiar ache, that lost, regretful feeling only he could give me. i never wanted to feel it again. never. ever.
maybe this was why i came, so i could really know. so i could say good bye.
i looked at him, and i thought, ‘if i was very brave or very honest, i would tell him.’
i would say it, so he would know it and i could never take it back. but i wasn’t that brave or honest, so all i did was look at him. and i think he knew anyway.
‘I release you. i evict you from my heart. because if i don’t do it now, i never will.’
i was the one to look away first..”
excerpt, Jenny Han’s It’s Not Summer Without You
““Life was passing me by. I was alive, but not awake. I hadn’t been awake in a really long time. Funny, I thought the prince was supposed to wake Sleeping Beauty. Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined that I wasn’t the dragon or the prince. But the one in need of a rescue so epic — that my world shattered.
The scary thing about waking up? You’re reminded how much of your life was a nightmare — and again remember why you went to sleep in the first place. —Gabe H.”
Excerpt From: Rachel Van Dyken. “Toxic.” iBooks.
Excerpt From: Rachel Van Dyken. “Toxic.” iBooks.
“Enjoy the good times while you can—they won’t be lasting much longer.
I guess life is like that.
You think you have it all under control. Your path so perfectly mapped out. And then one day you’re driving along and Bam! You get rammed from behind on the freeway. And you never saw it coming.
People are like that too. Unpredictable.
No matter how well you think you know somebody? how confident you are of their feelings, their reactions? They can still surprise you. And in the most devastating of ways.”
Excerpt From: Chase, Emma. “Twisted (tangled #2).” ePub Bud (www.epubbud.com), 2014-04-01. iBooks.
weekend of new beginnings :-)
Winter wonderland kemerlu
And the blurred ones taken by kuya jet
What happened?
Looking at the pictures of company-sponsored events, i just realized that i’ve been missing a lot. For how many years.. Almost 5?! For me.. It was always just me and him. But not for him.
My oath to my self?! I’ll love my self more. It shoukd always be gabu and my family next to God. Love every second of everything. Just love. Don’t let someone control you and your choices. Always make your own decision. I’ll love my friends and vow never lose contact/communication with them. And always, always give time to thank & praise God.
Kaye’s last day sa office
One saturday night
Sa lapad ng noo q.. Eto lang nakuha s pic..
Happy
At ang malupet.. After we bought the “koloretes” from etude house.. My friend keith tried it on me.. And the result..
Ow nowr!
Last friday.. Day!
Thanksgiving 2014
I could’ve spent this years’ thanksgiving day with him, but of course, due to unforseen events.. I didn’t.
Instead, i was able to spend it with two of the girls i’ll always be thankful for. They were with me when i felt so down.. They taught me how to commute and all that.. I’m not a rich kid (RK) it’s just that he has a car so.. Hatid-sundo Ng peg ng lola nyo a few months back.
Thank you girls for spending this day with me! Love you both!
Sundate with friends
the change in me.
gabu bear
i’m proud to say.. nothing but love (and your body sabi mo nga)
if life was perfect
“If life was perfect, how in the hell would we ever learn to depend on someone other than ourselves? If anything, that’s what life’s taught me. The need to be perfect is stemmed in the very belief that it’s actually something we can achieve. Self-actualization — doesn’t exist.”
Excerpt From: Rachel Van Dyken. “Toxic.” iBooks.
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“Baring your soul to someone is like purposefully stabbing yourself in the heart and waiting for the person you love to stop the bleeding —Wes M.”
Excerpt From: Rachel Van Dyken. “Toxic.” iBooks.
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new
The sister-in-law once told me..
“he doesn’t deserve you. Kung sinasabi nya na ayaw nya matulad kay Papa, sa ginawa nya sayo mas malala pa sya kay Papa eh! Difference lang is wala sya binuntis! But he’s worst! Pinagsabay nya kayo?! Para saan? What will he get out of it?! Bragging rights na madami nagkakagusto sa kanya?! Sa anytime pwede sya magpalit ng babae kung gugustuhin nya?! Hindi ganyan pagkakakilala ko sa kanya! I know he’s more than that! Anu yun.. gumaganti sya sa ginawa ni Papa sa mama nya? Eh bakit ikaw yung gagantihan?!”
The Aunt said:
“you deserve someone better tin. I know sobrang mahal mo sya.. but he doesn’t feel the same way anymore kasi meron syang ibang nakita. It’s unfair. We just can’t do anything anymore. Kasi… you should’ve considered the fact na meron sya pagnananahan from both sides of her parents. Hindi ba enough na reason yun para ma-turn off ka sa kanya? Kasi he’s from a broken family? It’s good to hear na you don’t give importance on those things.. pero next time, you should consider those din. He doesn’t deserve you..”
“hiyang hiya ako sayo.. and sa family mo. I know you’ve treated him well. I really appreciate everything you’ve done for him, for Linda, and for the rest of our family. I know you have sacrificed your time for your family para sa kanila ng mama nya. Ako na humihingi ng sorry para sa kanya Tin.. learn from those things, forgive everthing he did, and be thankful na ngayon pa lang nangyari na to.. kasi kung tatagal pa.. mas masasaktan ka lang. kasi mangyayari at mangyayari yun, kung talagang ugali na nya yan.. hindi na maaalis sa kanya yan.”
“when I found out na sinampal ka nya.. kahit biro yun, malakas or hindi.. sampal pa din yun. I was really thankful na you didn’t report him to the authorities. I know how much you cared for him and how much you love him.. and I know those were the reasons why you didn’t do anything against him. istorbo sayo, sa pamilya mo, at samin din.. pero thank you kasi ikaw yung mas nag-isip ng consequences na pwede nyo harapin if magrereklamo ka pa. I support Women’s Rights Movements and if ever lumala yun situation nyo ang umabot sa point na idedemanda mo sya, anon a lang sasabihin ng mga kasamahan ko.. alam ko masakit lahat ng to.. pero sana isipin mo na lang na this is God’s way of showing you na hindi ito yung buhay na plano Nya for you.. and kung kayo man ni Jolo in the end, everything will fall into places maghiwalay man kayo ngayon..”
“matigas talaga ulo ni jolo.. parang mama nya. Balewala sa kanya yung mga ginawa mo, ang gusto lang nya eh yung magiging Masaya sya. Hindi nya naiisip na may nasasaktan sya. Yan ang namana nya sa mama nya. Thank you kasi pinilit mo sya intindihin despite of all the things he has done to you. Hindi man nya mrealize lahat ng to ngayon.. pag Dyos na ang naningil.. alam mo na.. Dyos na ang bahalang gumanti para sayo”
The cousin said:
“ang lalake pag sinabing hindi na sya Masaya.. ibig sabihin sa iba na sya Masaya. Ganyan din sinabi sakin ng ex husband ko. Let him go Tin. He doesn’t deserve you. Kasi you deserve someone better. We deserve someone better. Tatanda sya na ganyan.. hihintayin mo pa ban a mag-asawa na kayo tapos mambababae nanaman sya? Hindi na sya magbabago. Hindi na mawawala sa kanya yan.. you deserve to be happy Tin.”
10 Things My Second Heartbreak Taught Me About Love (an excerpt)
source: http://elitedaily.com/dating/ten-things-learned-second-love/681572/
I never thought I would ever have to write about my second love. I had always hoped that after my first love and I ended things, I would meet someone new and everything would fall into place and he would be the one for me.
Instead, here I am, two years later, picking up the pieces of another lost love and another chapter that I had to finally close.
After my first love and I broke up, I thought it was the end of the world and I did not ever expect to fall in love ever again — or at least not for a while.
My second love — we’ll call him Bryan — and I met in college. I was finally over my last breakup and was starting to date again, but still wasn’t sure if I was ready to head back into a relationship.
I told my roommates that I didn’t want a relationship, but four hours later, Bryan walked into a party and changed my mind.
They say when you aren’t expecting it is when it will come into your life, which is what happened with Bryan and me. He taught me things that I didn’t expect to learn. With him, I was independent and I was in control of my life.
Two years later we ended. I never said goodbye. I never got that great ending I had hoped for us, and instead got silence.
Even though he didn’t end up being the guy he was in the beginning, he did teach me a lot of things that I don’t think my first love ever could have and for that, I am grateful. Here are 10 of them:
You can love again:
Even though I thought I would never love again or ever feel feelings for someone after my first love, I did. Bryan opened my eyes to that and I know that I will someday find my next love.
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Being vulnerable isn’t as bad as it seems:
He brought out emotions in me that I didn’t want to share with anyone. As hard as it was to open up to someone, doing so taught me a lot about myself.
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Someone will love you for all of your flaws:
Bryan taught me that I can find someone who will love me in spite of and for my flaws.
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Communicate:
Though many women believe that guys can read our minds and pick up on our hints, they don’t. Some might, but most likely, you just need to communicate. Someone who loves you will care enough to listen and communicate back.
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Understand someone’s needs:
Each person has his or her own needs. Recognize this and make the changes to make him or her as comfortable as you want him or her to make you.
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Enjoy every minute you have with someone:
We all spend way too much time planning the next step rather than living in the moment with a person. You never know when a person may no longer be around. Since we’re all ultimately only left with memories, create as many special ones as you can.
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That it is okay to love:
My biggest fear was to love and not be loved in return. I realized if I never shared my love, I never would the way I did, which was magical.
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Boys are stupid:
They make huge mistakes and sometimes they don’t even realize it. Call them out on it and if nothing changes, know that you deserve better.
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It is okay to walk away from less than you deserve:
Never settle. If you are not being treated the way want and need and deserve, walk away. While this is absolutely easier said than done, trust me that you are worth it.
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Always be yourself:
Don’t ever change to please someone else. Sometimes, we change to please someone or to fit a certain mold. Being yourself is the most beautiful ways you can be. Figure out who you are and how to make yourself happy before looking to someone else to do those things.
dating again
Madam joe of rockwell
My younger brother teaching my son how to climb the ladder 🙂
Kristine Angeles 
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